Thoughts

I've been thinking alot lately about what I'm doing with my life. Do I really want to become an artist. What would I sell, how would I sell it. See here is the problem already. As an artist to live you must sell the work that you create or you must hold down several jobs while creating work. But if you don't sell it what do you do with it. Give it away? I can see selling my work if I just become a potter. Pottery is something people use, not necassarily something with deep meaning that the viewer has to understand to fully enjoy the piece. With pottery one only needs to enjoy the feel and use of the object to appreciate it. Honestly I can see myself specifically only working in pottery for the rest of my life but at the school I attend that would be impossible, to only take courses in. So the question is what next. I'm a sculpture major. Technically I would go on next semester to take more metals, woodshop, sculpture, and ceremics classes, along with some liberal studies. Do I want to keep going, finish school? That would be ideal seeing as I've already put so much money into it I might as well finish. I'm just not sure where I'm going when I finish. Maybe that's why I don't mind waisting a semester working at Disney World. I absolutely loved working at  the summer camp, teaching pottery. Don't get me wrong, some days it was a challenge and other days I just wanted to quit. But I loved those girls. No matter how much they drove me insane at the end of the day I just wanted them to be happy and safe. Teaching is not an easy task yet it is so rewarding. When a child gets that look in their eyes, that you recognize at once as understanding, you are so proud. While at camp I didn't just get that proud feeling in my classroom but also when my bunk girls played sports, were in the plays, helped out a friend, etc. Even when I was participating in other classes I felt proud of the campers as much as their teachers in that area were proud. One good thing about teaching pottery, or really art in general, is that there isn't too much of a language barrier. It didn't matter if my students spoke english or not, I could teach them just the same. I appreciated this fact, and I feel the international campers did too. The best job would be to just teach at a camp all year but that dream isn't really feasible. So here we go, oh what to do.