Money Problems

I guess everyone goes through money problems. If only we had a barter system where money wasn't involved and everyone just did their part. Too bad that doesn't exist here. So the job hunt continues. If I don't get a job this summer or if I get one too late I will have to take out a 3rd loan along with my two loans from the government. I don't want my parents to have to help me out as much this next year. I feel like a burden on them and I am tired of it. I want to be independent but it is so hard to achieve this in our society today, especially when the government won't even legally see me as an independent. I have to a)have a child b)be married and/or divorced c)be an orphan d)be in a Masters program or e) be like 23 years old before the government will count me as an independent, at least for FASFA anyways. Ridiculousness. Oh so the job thing. I have applied pretty much everywhere I could think of not including fast food. I received one call back and they found a way to fix it so that they didn't need a new employee before I could even interview for the placement. I applied to a summer camp as a counselor and I really hope I get it because it seems like it would be a true experience and an exciting way to spend the summer and get paid at the same time. Dad asked around and at one of his usual dining places, a small mexican restuaraunt, the manager said that they have been looking for a couple new employees and she didn't mind that I would only be able to work for a few months. I had to drop off a resume today and she will call for an interview at another time, depending on if she likes what she sees in the resume. We will see I suppose.

So on a different note... Christie, mom's friend from church, was talking about personality colors the other night so I decided I wanted to reasearch it. Everyone is a little bit of each color but most of a dominant one or two equally dominant ones. There are only four colors. Red, Yellow, Blue, and White. After some careful research I decided my dominant color is White. I do possess a bit of yellow=creativity, blue=selflessness, and red=power play.

Whites

Whites are motivated by peace.  Whites will do almost anything to avoid confrontation. They like to flow through life without hassle or discomfort.  Feeling good is even more important to them than being good.

Whites need kindness.  While Whites respond beautifully to thoughtfulness and  amiability, they have a strong, silent stubbornness that surfaces when they are treated unkindly.  They resent being scolded.  They dislike harsh words.  They open up instantly to people who are kind, but Whites recoil form those who are hostile.. They are motivated by kindness - and cannot understand why other people are unkind.

Whites like to keep a low profile.  Whites enjoy their quiet independence.  What appears to some people as quiet desperation can show itself to be bullheadedness.  Those who misinterpret the peace-loving nature of a White as an invitation to be demanding and bossy will soon meet a wall of passive resistance.  Whites are tougher than people think.

Whites like to be asked their opinions.  They won't volunteer them.  They value the respect of others, but they rarely go out of their way to seek it.   They need to be coaxed to talk about their skill, hobbies and interests.

Whites are independent.  Unlike Reds, who want to   control others, Whites seek only to avoid being controlled. They simply refuse to be under another's thumb, especially when treated without the respect they feel they deserve.  Whites want to do things their way, in their own time.  They do not ask much of others, and resent it when others demand things from them. They often comply with unreasonable demands - just to keep peace.  They will only express their anger and frustration when they can no longer stand being bossed around.  Whites do not like to be pushed, and they can be fearsome when they finally "blow up".

Whites are motivated by other people's desires.  Whites are open to the recommendations of others on ways to resolve any and all situations.  White executives value new management ideas from employees.  White children welcome help - they are eager students.  Whites make agreeable dates.  They are interested in making sure the other person has a good time, and are willing to do whatever the other person wants.  Whites, however, want suggestions - not demands.

I believe the color white pretty much sums me up.